In May 2020, my twin brother attempted suicide. I didn't see or speak to him for a long time. Originally a response to a prompt for an exhibition at my school, Rendezvous is based on a poem I wrote in November 2021 when I had heard he'd been discharged from residential and would be spending Christmas with us.
The poem described how loud and crowded my head felt, how I felt like he really had died, how I felt like he wasn't even real. I ran from it all. I didn’t want to go back to my life. So I didn’t, throwing myself as far as I could into my work in the hope that it might just kill me too.